Late Night Fight and a Case of the Ex

We got in a huge fight last night. The therapist gave us some homework to improve our communication between one another. My “job” was to initiate a conversation about “us” and only “us”. I choose last night. I was going away tonight to Victoria BC for 2 nights and then I was only going to be home on Thursday night as Friday I leave for LA for one night. I’m not home much this week and I figured that we would have a great chat and some great love.

First of all, you have to get me straight…I’m all fun and games like my post about the weekend, however I do have a serious side and I would never have actually left the bar with anyone that night. I won’t go there… I don’t want to go there. Sure I have VERY strong cravings and sometimes want to take the express bus there, but I don’t’. I fess up to people that I flirting with that it is just that, nothing more. I can appreciate a looker and I want a looker to appreciate me.

I thanked him for not razzing me about coming home “past curfew” on Friday night. The curfew was set about a year ago I came home really late – 5 am – and he was up worried sick about me…was I ok?…did I leave him for someone else?….what would I be doing as such an ungodly hour? blah blah. I reluctantly agreed to be home at 3 am the latest from that point forward. I’ve been out on binge nights with friends maybe 5 times in 6 months. Really, I fly on weekends normally and do the office job Monday to Friday as much as possible. There is no time for friends or social interaction and this is the root of all my issues with our relationship….I digressed….

Well, he did not like my comment about the curfew as this was the first time that I said it in front of him. My friends razz me about it all the time and I try to laugh it off. To make a long story short, things were thrown about the condo in anger, not by me but by my man. I stood there and shook my head at him. Just like my fater. I CAN'T STAND MY FATHER. I don’t understand violence and anger and he was clearly angry at me. He said if he had it his way, I would be home at 12:30 the latest. At that comment I had to laugh because going out with friends to a bar would be pointless. I said that all I asked is that before I go out, that I can evaluate how the night may unfold and I would let him know that I may be in late. This is who I’m with, I’ll have my cell phone etc etc…

Clearly, this was not good enough for him.

I try to tell him that I’m not some country bumpkin that does not have any city smarts. HELLO!!!!! I travel internationally on my own on a weekly basis. How come he does not worry about me in London, Madrid, Paris, Rome, Munich, Frankfurt, LA, Vancouver…….. wandering the streets at 3 am? I told him that he was acting like one of my parents. I could understand his concern if we were never together and that I always ditched him for my friends but once a month out with friends…give me a break.

Am I asking too much? I need a reality check here so help me out. I can explain more via e-mail it’s just that I gotta get some work done in the office before my flight tonight.

Track me tonight at flytecomm.com (Air Canada Flt #1191 Oct 21 and Flt#1190 on Oct 23)

Now…off to lunch with Daniel & Michael to converse about my personal hellllllllllllllll.

BTW – my ex bf’s porn name is Matthew Anders …thanks to some research to our latest blogger Secret Songs of Silence. Give him a visit and a big shout out. It takes courage for some of us and I think he has a lot of it. Thanks for the pix…now I got a case of the ex.